A Wedding

I've been tossing this dream to the wayside, as I'm apt to do a lot.  It was a dream I had a few weeks ago. I never mentioned it before because -

1). It was a dream related to something I heard the night before.

2). The obvious skepticism.

I'm not feeling well tonight, so I'll stick to the main points here:

- The night before, when trying to fall asleep I heard - and I heard this a couple times - a male voice say "gonna get married."

I ignored it, thinking either it must have just rhymed with that or my ears were trying to make sense of the sounds around me.  (What "Ghost Hunters" call matrixing).

- But then arrives the dream that I had that night. 

In short, I was in my upstairs bathroom.  I was going to be married that day.  I remember speaking to my Mom, then having her leave so I could take a bath and get ready for the wedding.  In the dream I really didn't want to marry this guy... whoever the heck he was, as I received absolutely no impression of him... but kept thinking to myself that I wanted to see Patrick at least one more time.  I wanted to marry HIM.

Immediately after that thought, he was in the room with me.  He and I held each other, and I was terrified that he would leave at any second.  I grabbed him and held on to him as if he were my lifeline.  I mean, in that moment it was like he was all that mattered.  I cannot stress enough how petrified I was that he would leave, but.... he didn't leave.  Not at all.

So that's why I'm finally writing this dream down; all because of THE FEELINGS. Feelings which are nothing like me in my daily life at all.  What I mean is the whole "I can't live without this man" scenario.

That is soooo not like me, but in this dream - and others with him - those STRONG feelings are always there and are bombarding me full force.

(Also, he never spoke in the dream.  I didn't even see his face).

But then I remember hearing that voice saying "gonna get married" before I fell asleep that night.  WHY did I hear that?  And if I did, is that why I dreamed I was getting married?  Or was it inevitable that I would dream that?  Was that really Patrick visiting me, and was it his way of trying to shed light on the mystery?

Now can ya see why it's all so confusing?

Music Video

This is old news, but I don't think I ever mentioned it before.  I was listening to some music tonight when I remembered how much I used to love this one song back in High School. It was "I'll Be There" by The Escape Club.  It's a song about a guy who died, and he's singing about how he's watching over his love that's grieving over him.

Years later, I kept trying to find the video.  All I could remember was that everything was underwater. 

But I remembered that every single time that video was on tv, I had to watch it.  I had never lost a close family member before then, yet I loved this song so much.  I especially remember thinking about how the guy singing in the video (the guy who'd died) was so RESTLESS. (Or at least that's how I interpreted it from then, and over the years as I tried finding the music video).

Tonight I looked up the video on YouTube, and it's there!  It's a little different from how I remembered, but not much. 

Anyway, back in High School Patrick was just "the knight" or "the ghost" to me.  I never even bothered to try solving the mystery.  But, looking back now, I think I was entranced by that song because it hit a chord deep down with me about Patrick.

Could I be wrong?  You bet.

Do I think I'm wrong?  Not really.

PS -

Watching the vid just now, I realized a few coincidences:

- This guy's hair is just like Patrick's!   The only difference is it isn't blond.

- The focusing in on his eyes several times.

(If you've read all my sites, you'll know what I'm talking about)

- The whole "Think of Me" lyric echoing none other than my favorite movie of all time... POTO, where Christine sings the "Think of Me" track.

(Even all the candles are POTO-ish to me.  Lol!)

Could all that be just coincidence?

Definitely, as I DO BELIEVE IN COINCIDENCES.

But out of all that, the hair matching Patrick's is kind of funny to me.

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Old Dream Message

Well, a long time ago it was almost a possible message anyway.

But I came across a really old PM from someone, which I never posted on my site.  It isn't a biggie, but since it's Patrick-related, here it is: 

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Patrick is your resident ghost/spirit, right? I had a dream recently and the name Patrick was said to me very clearly and I've been trying to figure out who Patrick was, and where I had heard of Patrick before. I think this might be the same Patrick. I don't even know what the dream was about now. I just remember the name very clearly. Very interesting!

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Old Updates

Okay, since Geocities closed down - and that's where my updates for the old Patrick sites used to be - from now on those old updates will be HERE.

I haven't copy/pasted them in yet, but I will sometime.

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